God's timing, Not on my timing

so i finished my first semester at UTMB and although this summer was crazy hectic and nerve racking-- im back for another semester-- Praise God. From these past couple of months, I learned that... all this... this life... nothing matters if we dont keep God first. Right now im learning that even though i may think i got everything mapped out-- in the end-- we're on God's time, not ours. It's hard. I may be delayed from graduating, but I believe everything has a reason. I just have to trust God because I know He sees the bigger picture.

so lately, Ive been praying for my husband... so whoever you are... I'll be waiting and praying for you. Until then... i'll just try to keep my focus on school and do extra well this semester...

Jesus.. please help me. Show me that there's a way out of this mess. I really need you.

A small break...

I finally got a lil' break from school and im home at my parent's for the wkend. It's been really fun hanging out with my family and just relaxing and now that the wkend is over-- im dreading the thought of going back to school. =(

Im trying to remain positive.. but.. im sooo sooo tired. My mind wants to shut off on me. This wk is going to be tough too bc ill be starting clinicals this wk. From now on-- Wednesdays and Thursdays-- 630am-330pm. Im excited.. but.. the thought of waking up that early... sigh.... Lord- please give me strength.

August 2010-- seems really far far away. =(

what's wrong with me?!

I thank God that He opened the door for me to nursing school.. but.. i have no idea why im doing so horribly! I study. Go over the material with my classmates. Feel pretty confident when taking my tests and then BOOM-- get my grades back and I bombed it! I dont get it. What's wrong with me?! Why can't i just get the material?! What am i doing wrong?! I even went to tutorial.. saw a academic counselor.. n still... sigh.... Lord-- please help me.. I need a miracle! I know I cant do this on my own.. I need you to just... bless me with this incredible wisdom where I can fully understand the material and successfully graduate nursing school.

So yesterday... i went...

SKYDIVING!



Praise the Lord that He kept me safe and ALIVE! Woohoo!

10 years later...

So today I went to my 10 yr high school reunion and I must say that it was quite interesting. Although it was fun catching up with some old friends-- Im fortunate to have kept in touch with most of my friends that i really care abt from high school. It's true.. some people that you thought were so pretty or so cute back then... arent all that anymore.... hahaha.. it was good to see everyone tho. Hopefully our next gathering- there will be more ppl and not at a bar.

A mth later...

it's been awhile and since the last update-- i went to Japan to visit Jeannie for 9 days. I no longer work at New Start and started nursing school at UTMB full time. I moved out of my parent's house and now living with my cousin up in Pearland (but i still come home every wkend). Life has been pretty exciting, but in a way.. i feel very lost and things are happening so quickly that I haven't had time to just sit and just.. soak it all in.

School is incredibly draining ( and it's only been 2 wks) and I've been praying A LOT that God just blesses me with this... understanding.. the ability to grasp all this info and be able to apply it all so that i can be an amazing nurse one day. Sigh.. im stressed. Im tired. I feel lost. Im frustrated. Im not myself. I dunno what it is.. but.. I know... I just need Jesus to guide me through this new adventure. Everything will make sense in the end.