NO MORE!

why do i constantly let him make me feel like im a girl not worth fighting for... sigh.. NO MORE!

500 days of Summer

so i finally got to see 500 days of Summer.. well i calculated-- mine is 3,285 days. How sad. sigh....

God's timing, Not on my timing

so i finished my first semester at UTMB and although this summer was crazy hectic and nerve racking-- im back for another semester-- Praise God. From these past couple of months, I learned that... all this... this life... nothing matters if we dont keep God first. Right now im learning that even though i may think i got everything mapped out-- in the end-- we're on God's time, not ours. It's hard. I may be delayed from graduating, but I believe everything has a reason. I just have to trust God because I know He sees the bigger picture.

so lately, Ive been praying for my husband... so whoever you are... I'll be waiting and praying for you. Until then... i'll just try to keep my focus on school and do extra well this semester...

Jesus.. please help me. Show me that there's a way out of this mess. I really need you.

A small break...

I finally got a lil' break from school and im home at my parent's for the wkend. It's been really fun hanging out with my family and just relaxing and now that the wkend is over-- im dreading the thought of going back to school. =(

Im trying to remain positive.. but.. im sooo sooo tired. My mind wants to shut off on me. This wk is going to be tough too bc ill be starting clinicals this wk. From now on-- Wednesdays and Thursdays-- 630am-330pm. Im excited.. but.. the thought of waking up that early... sigh.... Lord- please give me strength.

August 2010-- seems really far far away. =(

what's wrong with me?!

I thank God that He opened the door for me to nursing school.. but.. i have no idea why im doing so horribly! I study. Go over the material with my classmates. Feel pretty confident when taking my tests and then BOOM-- get my grades back and I bombed it! I dont get it. What's wrong with me?! Why can't i just get the material?! What am i doing wrong?! I even went to tutorial.. saw a academic counselor.. n still... sigh.... Lord-- please help me.. I need a miracle! I know I cant do this on my own.. I need you to just... bless me with this incredible wisdom where I can fully understand the material and successfully graduate nursing school.

So yesterday... i went...

SKYDIVING!



Praise the Lord that He kept me safe and ALIVE! Woohoo!

10 years later...

So today I went to my 10 yr high school reunion and I must say that it was quite interesting. Although it was fun catching up with some old friends-- Im fortunate to have kept in touch with most of my friends that i really care abt from high school. It's true.. some people that you thought were so pretty or so cute back then... arent all that anymore.... hahaha.. it was good to see everyone tho. Hopefully our next gathering- there will be more ppl and not at a bar.

A mth later...

it's been awhile and since the last update-- i went to Japan to visit Jeannie for 9 days. I no longer work at New Start and started nursing school at UTMB full time. I moved out of my parent's house and now living with my cousin up in Pearland (but i still come home every wkend). Life has been pretty exciting, but in a way.. i feel very lost and things are happening so quickly that I haven't had time to just sit and just.. soak it all in.

School is incredibly draining ( and it's only been 2 wks) and I've been praying A LOT that God just blesses me with this... understanding.. the ability to grasp all this info and be able to apply it all so that i can be an amazing nurse one day. Sigh.. im stressed. Im tired. I feel lost. Im frustrated. Im not myself. I dunno what it is.. but.. I know... I just need Jesus to guide me through this new adventure. Everything will make sense in the end.

PRAISE GOD! THANK-YOU!!!

P000125430 Huynh-Le, Thuy-Van K

Congratulations, you have been accepted to the UTMB School of Nursing program. Attached is your acceptance letter and acceptance packet. Please return all forms as instructed.

Thank you.
JoAnn Mahoney
Coordinator
UTMB School of Nursing Admissions
Office Phone: (409) 747-1549
Fax: (409) 772-3770
Email: jomahone@utmb.edu
Website: http://www.son.utmb.edu

Fireproof... Never Leave Your Partner Behind...

After a very.. VERY complicated day... i ended my day watching Fireproof.. and I have to say... it's more than just a movie.. it really speaks the truth abt marriage.. abt love.. God's unconditional love for us... abt second chances. It was truly AMAZING and it really captures real struggles in couples and i dunno... i cant find words to describe it.. but.. I recommend everyone to watch this.. especially married couples... wow.. i just can't stop crying...

Some Funnies...

More pix...

More Pix...

Pix from the Rodeo and My Family & Friends <3

at a stand still...

so... I went to my interview at UTMB on Friday the 13th... and Praise God-- He was totally with me. The lady- Ms. Ruth was super nice and she made me feel so comfortable. Everything abt the interview went really well.. so i should hear back like next wk (hopefully)....

until i hear back from UTMB-- i feel like my life is at a stand still.. i dont know what i should do abt work... dunno if i should live on my own near school or my cousin's in Pearland... whether to plan my Scrub's party or not... plan my trip to Japan... the outcome with the youth group at VEC after im gone... sigh... i just need to work on being patient and need to be still and know that He is God.

Other than that- life is great! My cousin Sarah was home from Spring Break and we got to see Keith Urban and Taylor Swift at the Rodeo. WooHoo... They're such great performers and artists! sooo sooo good! Been spending lots of time with the girls and we started a woman's prayer group and Wednesday was our first meeting. God really blessed me with awesome friends and family... Thanks Jesus!

it's my life.. my decision...

a lot has happened in a couple of days..

i dont even know what's going on anymore... but...in the end.. i have to forgive and trust God that He knows what He's doing...

It's funny bc i had all these rules and regulations that i was suppose to follow and not to follow.. but in the end-- i have to make the ultimate decision bc it's my life, no one elses...

to tell u the truth... Im a bit confused.. but.. i guess I'm finally seeing the light at the end of the tunnel.

Things I wished I didn't see...

The internet is such an amazing source to find random facts and information... but.. i just came across some pictures and some journal entries that I wished I didn't see....

He really loved her. Since the very beginning of everything.. his heart belonged to her.

I just wished I didn't ignore the signs.. but.. I wanted to believe that it was just me and not him... in the end- i was right.

An email

I got an email yesterday. I really don't know if I should respond to it or not.

Rascal Flatts

Today was the first concert day at the Houston Rodeo.. and I went with Lisa and saw Rascal Flatts! WOOHOO- they were awesome! YAY! 1 down 3 more to go! Next up- Brad Paisley!

Before this day is over...

Before I go to bed... I just really want to thank God for being so SO awesome to me. Praise God for His perfect timing and for... singing a new song over my life. <3

BSNG Interview Invitation - UTMB School of Nursing‏

Waiting for this FOREVER.. well feels like forever!

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Sent on behalf of: Dr. Tina Cuellar, Associate Dean for Student Affairs and Admissions

Dear Applicant,

We would like to invite you to take part in the interview process for the BSN Program slated to begin May 4, 2009. We will be holding interviews on Friday, March 13, 2009, between the hours of 8:30 a.m. and 4:30p.m. at The School of Nursing.

Please contact Ms. JoAnn Mahoney, Admissions Coordinator, by phone at (409) 747-1549 or via email at jomahone@utmb.edu to schedule your interview. Please plan to arrive a few moments prior to your scheduled appointment. Interviews will be scheduled in 30 minute intervals beginning at 8:30 a.m.

If you have any questions, please let us know. We look forward to seeing you soon!

Sincerely,

JoAnn Mahoney
Coordinator
UTMB School of Nursing
Admissions Office
Phone: (409) 747-1549
Fax: (409) 772-3770
Email: jomahone@utmb.edu
Website: http://www.son.utmb.edu
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PRAISE GOD! PRAISE GOD! I got my interview at UTMB for the nursing program next Friday- March 13th at 10AM.

OMG! OMG! OMG!

THANK-YOU JESUS!!!! <><

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Just found out that they're accepting 60 applicants out of 300 ppl... WOW.. THANK-YOU JESUS!

L'Auberge du Lac

Today was my first time in Lake Charles and while I was driving back to Houston- God allowed me to see a shooting star! =)

This is Real.. This is Me...

This is real, This is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

By: Demi Lovato

it's 4 AM...

It's 4 am... n i woke up bc of a bad dream. sigh...

almost a mth later... i get this txt on monday- "how are u?"

my heart dropped after realizing who it came from. i decided long n hard whether to respond or not, so i decided that it was best not to.

so then yesterday... around noonish... my office phone rang and i picked it up.. n then.. i hear that familiar voice on the other end... "hello?"

Great... it was him. sigh...

we didnt say much to each other.. he asked me how i was doing and he told me that he didn't know why he was calling me... and in my mind- i was like.. i dont know why ur calling me either..

it just makes me really sad bc deep down.. i wish we can be cool.. bc.. he was my best friend for 10 years.. but.. i also loved him all those yrs too.. so... it's not easy to just be "cool" with him after he pretty much told me that he wanted to give his heart to someone else.

sigh... this sux...

i was doing really good too and now... ouch-- my heart.

Lord-- i just need to rely on UR strength and I need to keep focus on You and ONLY You! Let me not be distracted by the things around me. I just ask for You to con't to guard my fragile heart and just... be in control of everything. Please be with both of us. I know it wasn't easy for him to call me... I dont know what he's going through Lord... but You do.. so I just pray that You just con't to comfort him and surround him with good friends/family during this tough time. I know deep down-- You have this huge plan for both of us-- so teach us... con't to smooth out the rough edges so that in the end-- we're all that You created us to be. Amen.

Oh-- i wanted to journal this too-- cause I dont want to forget this later on...

Yesterday was daddy's bday and Praise God for giving us that time to just hang out as a family. I've been praying for my parent's salvation like forever.. n us just hanging out on sunday n again yesterday... that was an awesome first step. I wouldn't chg those moments in the world.

I gave my dad a picture frame that had "Hero" written on top of the frame and in it was a pix of my sis, me n daddy when we were little girls.. n my dad really loved it a lot. My dad is a man of few words, but last night-- i knew in my hearts of heart that he really enjoyed his birthday. Praise God!

Oh-- the cute part is that i overheard him talking to my mom... he was like.. wow.. i never imagined that we would have two beautiful girls.... awww.. my daddy! <3

Random week

haha.. since last Friday.. I have to say this was the most random week ever. I hung out with ppl  that I don't usually hang out with and gone to a lot of random places this wk. (Ooh La La) haha.. but overall... it has been fun.... really fun. I pray for more random wks this yr. 

Today is V-Day! I got my dress. I got my friends. Have to finish my Vday gift and it's awesome cause for the first time- Im actually excited! Here's to another random day! YAY!

Hope and Faith

It's been more than a week since Pastor Rick and Emily's wedding and the wedding was definitely a story where it ends.. happily ever after...

The wedding was... beautiful... and looking at them.. it shows proof that... it's important to wait for God's best. All I can say is that the wedding was... absolutely beautiful... n my friends n i had a blast! It was like a reunion and I dunno how to describe the evening but.. it was an unforgettable.

Other than the wedding.. Ive been pretty busy... but... a good kind of busy. Ive been hanging out with my friends and reuniting some old ones... yeah.. it's been fun.

Spiritually-- I feel like I've grown closer to God... been reading and praying a lot. I've been listening to a lot of sermons too. I feel like that's my only comfort since the breakup.

To be honest... it's been a real struggle for me and I'm trying really hard to be positive and strong abt everything. There were a few times where I just had to cry out to God and ask for His strength and peace during this whole situation.

There are times where I wonder.. if he still thinks abt me... I mean... we use to talk to each other every single day.. n now... he's gone...

The only way to describe this breakup is like having someone close to me die.

(sigh)

Looking back at the relationship... i still dont understand how it ended up being like this.. there were times where we were so in love and happy and now.. we don't even talk. I dont even know who he is anymore. It just really breaks my heart.. but... like the story in the Bible.. I can't look back or I'll turn into a pile of salt. I just have to move forward towards the cross and try really hard not to look back anymore.

God's best...

WOW.. today is a big day! a very historic moment....

Pastor Rick and Emily are finally getting married. <3

Last night I had the honor to attend their rehearsal dinner and it is so amazing how God plans things so perfectly. 

I left the event full of hope and peace... n i really needed this... especially with everything that happened this wk.

Key points from the event--

* Remain patient and wait for God's best

* Never forgetting who should be the main foundation in the relationship     --> Jesus Christ

* God is in total control

I can't wait for the wedding tonight and reunite with everyone. I'm so excited.

God- thank-you for being so awesome and for seeing the complete picture. Lord- i pray that my friends and I will remain patient for Your best. Pray that we will never settle for just anyone and that You will continue to mold us into Godly women that fears You. Pray for Pastor Rick and Emily that You will bless them on this new journey as husband and wife. Father- You are amazing and I pray for this day to be a day that we will never forget. Amen 

The Truth will set you free

so after 10 years... i finally get the truth and now that i know-- i wished i never picked up the phone.

after everything that has happened... I still believe in love. I still believe that true love exists and although i may not see it now... I know that in the end-- God is in control of ALL situations.. even if my heart seems like it's broken into a million pieces and can never be restored.. it will.. 

like ive been telling myself... weeks will soon turn into months n then years and all this... he will soon be a faded memory in my past.

i wish him happiness despite of everything that has happened. i blame myself for allowing myself to open my heart and falling so hopelessly in love for someone.. but who knew after 10 years.. this is how it would end.

everything happens for a reason and I believe God allowed this to happen so we can really move on. Really- for me to move on.

Could've loved him all my life, but instead... he wanted to love and give his heart to someone else other than me. 

sigh.. everything will be ok. i will be ok. No matter what- I got God on my side and nothing can beat that right?!

Lord- i pray for peace and for clarity during this time. I pray Lord for blessings upon both of us and for you to please mend our broken hearts. In the end- Lord, I pray that we remain in Ur perfect will and that we will always keep You first in everything. Please restore what has been broken Lord and let us find joy and love through You and only You. Pray that we will both find love again and that it brings delight and gladness to Your heart Lord. Thank-you for everything you have done Lord and everything You will do in the future. Amen.

First Post-- Hello World

Song of the Moment: Revelation by Third Day

Give me a revelation,

Show me what to do

Cause I've been trying to find my way,

I haven't got a clue

Tell me should I stay here,

Or do I need to more

Give me a revelation

I've got nothing without You

I've got nothing without You

(I really miss him)