Hope and Faith

It's been more than a week since Pastor Rick and Emily's wedding and the wedding was definitely a story where it ends.. happily ever after...

The wedding was... beautiful... and looking at them.. it shows proof that... it's important to wait for God's best. All I can say is that the wedding was... absolutely beautiful... n my friends n i had a blast! It was like a reunion and I dunno how to describe the evening but.. it was an unforgettable.

Other than the wedding.. Ive been pretty busy... but... a good kind of busy. Ive been hanging out with my friends and reuniting some old ones... yeah.. it's been fun.

Spiritually-- I feel like I've grown closer to God... been reading and praying a lot. I've been listening to a lot of sermons too. I feel like that's my only comfort since the breakup.

To be honest... it's been a real struggle for me and I'm trying really hard to be positive and strong abt everything. There were a few times where I just had to cry out to God and ask for His strength and peace during this whole situation.

There are times where I wonder.. if he still thinks abt me... I mean... we use to talk to each other every single day.. n now... he's gone...

The only way to describe this breakup is like having someone close to me die.

(sigh)

Looking back at the relationship... i still dont understand how it ended up being like this.. there were times where we were so in love and happy and now.. we don't even talk. I dont even know who he is anymore. It just really breaks my heart.. but... like the story in the Bible.. I can't look back or I'll turn into a pile of salt. I just have to move forward towards the cross and try really hard not to look back anymore.